Years ago, my Aunt Terri was telling me about a quote she read from a book, something about “if you’re not going up, you’re doing down” and it stuck with me. During that period of time I was definitely in growth mode, trying to learn everything I could about life, love, and dance.
The past three years, however, I went through this period of an illusion of going up, in my “career”, but turns out that my loyalty and devotion to a company isn’t always rewarded in turn as expected. I had ignored myself personally so I could be the best Office Manager there was and then when I moved “up” into an HR role I gave of myself even more, even when I didn’t think it was possible. I was getting paid more, given more responsibility, and without any direction from my manager whatsoever I was on my own, navigating my professional career. I had no idea what I was really doing because I wasn’t listening to myself at all. Personally, I was going down. Way down.
I floundered from plan to plan trying to figure out what my purpose was. Do I go back to school and get this degree or that one? Do I get more certifications in HR? Do I just sell everything and go to school in Germany? Do I just move to Mexico and live on a beach? Do I go get a real estate license?
None of these things truly spoke to my heart and soul. I couldn’t hear. I couldn’t see. I couldn’t feel.
I just knew I had to get out of this space of chaos.
I had recently learned that it’s best to learn to be happy no matter where you are, relationship, workplace, etc. before you make a move. Otherwise, you will always be searching for happiness outside of yourself.
So I worked on my happiness. I started my self-coaching program. I found inner happiness, inner peace, and inner truth.
I began my search for other jobs.
And as beautifully as I knew the Universe works in my favor, I wouldn’t have expected the next turn of events. The day I had my first in person interview scheduled with a new company was the day three dozen employees, including me, got laid off.
Well, that solves that!
I was sad for about 10 whole minutes when I got home unusually early from work that morning. Charlie was happy!
I knew that this was for me, not against me, and that I had to get my mind right for my interview that afternoon.
I could not have planned or worked out more perfectly how the following three weeks proceeded, how I got the job, when I started the job or how I was then given the beautiful gift of my new manager. Truly a breath of fresh air to have a competent, compassionate, and super smart lady to report to. Not only is this position something I can easily do but she wants me to learn and grow both professionally AND personally. There’s time and room here for me to focus on me…not just keeping employees well fed and caffeinated at the expense of my own well-being.
During these few months of chaos-free, stress-free, and anxiety-free living, I can finally hear myself. I can see more clearly now. I can feel who I really am.
And things are just falling into place. As I open up to truly living more and more each day I feel like I’m finally on my way back up. I’ve cleared the stagnant waters, washed clean, and filled up with an abundant flow of energy. My passions for wellness, massage, yoga, and dance have all been re-ignited. It feels so amazing.
I’m a new sponge, soaking up more and more knowledge and experience, and I just love the idea of sharing these insights and gifts with other people seeking change, growth, and healing in their own lives.
My life is no longer about my job. My life is about my contribution to the world as my whole self. Sometimes it’s messy and ugly. Sometimes it’s clean and beautiful.
But it can always be truly me.
Onward and upward!
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