Mind Games

We create our own Heaven or Hell here on Earth, I believe, with our thoughts. This is not about “the Secret” or “Law of Attraction” stuff. This is not about just saying words to yourself in the mirror everyday and hoping a magic genie will appear and grant you your wishes.  Although, it is pretty simple. I’ve learned thoughts create feelings which drive actions which create the results you see in your life. Sometimes those results are hellacious and sometimes, heavenly.

I’ve been creating some of my very own misery lately. All by myself, no help needed. I’ll notice a negative thought, or let’s get real, many negative thoughts, and then still wonder why I’m feeling anxiety or why my stomach is flip flopping all day. I love when this happens because I realize just how much of a beginner I am at life. I’ll feel wise and accomplished and then BAM. I’m humbled again. I welcome these teaching moments. They help me push through and work these life muscles. I get stronger and stronger each time.

As an outsider looking into my life you might not see any reason to think negative thoughts. And you would be correct, my friend. Life is amazing. My life is amazing. However, I still wake up with self-loathing and anxiety. I know that in those early waking moments I have a choice. Indulge in those emotions and let them drive my actions for the rest of the day, which will inevitably create more misery. OR, I can notice these thoughts and remember how tricky this brain can be and say, “Not-uh, buddy. Not today.” And then choose new thoughts that align with my greater purpose and goals.

This morning’s thoughts went like this….

As I notice my stomach not feeling great, “GOD EMILY WHY ALL THE ICE CREAM??”

(My mom and I ate Ben & Jerry’s together while watching some Netflix last night. Don’t judge. It makes you ugly.)

As I notice my knees creaking and cracking, “Jesus, Emily, lose the damn weight already and you wouldn’t feel like a 70 year old. Get your shit together.”

As I wash my hands in the bathroom sink and look at my face in the mirror, “Emily, if you don’t f*!@#ing start wearing sunscreen you’re going to lose the only damn thing going for you.”

And so on and so on.

I would never talk to my friends or family like this. It hurts to even see these words on the screen. Why are we so hard on ourselves!? It’s going to take rewiring this brain of mine every single day for the rest of my life to create new automatic morning thoughts but I’m willing to put in the work to reap the reward.

Here are some new thoughts I’m creating this morning instead…

As I notice the way my bedhead hair falls over to one side, “Ooh girl, you look kinda cute in the mornings.”

As I notice the soreness in my thighs from working out yesterday, “Man, I love how muscles work. My legs are so strong. Thick thighs saves lives.”

As I check my financials online, “Yes, I’m moving towards my financial goals like a damn BOSS!”

As I look at the day ahead, “Life is so amazing. I am so dang lucky to be living my life. I can’t wait to see what love and laughter I can create today.”

What kinda life are your thoughts creating? Hope it’s heavenly!

 


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Emily Rose Washburn

Integrative Life Coach, Licensed Massage Therapist, Reiki II Practitioner, Writer, Dancer, Artist